last night this happened:
my husband was in line to purchase some delicious costco treats and miles and i were hanging out saving a table.
baby was uncharacteristically gitty. like giggling, throwing his head back and laughing type gitty. it made my heart swell with love and pride. then i got a little self-conscious for a second. if there are people around us who just experienced a loss of a baby or who are having trouble getting pregnant, this blatant scene of baby sweetness could be really hard to see. so i kind of tried to tone it down, but miles wouldn't have it.
too. much. joy.
then it hit me.
i ended the post by saying, God willing, in a year or so, my husband and i will be that happy couple at costco. giggling with our rainbow baby whilst chowing down on a $1.50 hot dog. and when others see us i pray they find hope.
my deepest desire is that miles' life is a living demonstration of hope. hope in the flesh.
even at costco. may it be so.